Thursday, December 22, 2016

Are we on the same page?

You: "You are selfish!"
Me: "No I'm not!"

You: "Yes you are.. It is evident from the choices you made."

Me: "I chose what I did because of the situation. And if I still had a choice, I would choose differently. Also my current situation favors my choice."

You: "You ask a third person, get their opinion, and tell me if they don't agree with me."
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Me: Am I selfish?
My mind: ..no you're not

Me: But what if I am?
My mind: I'm telling you, you are not..

Me: How do you know? You're MY mind. You understand what I feed you. You think I'm not selfish because I've taught you the definition of selfish. What if selfishness has a different definition, a different meaning? Do you think all the selfish people in this world are aware that they are selfish? Do you think we are apt to judge ourselves?
My mind: Alright let me for a second believe that you are selfish. Let me believe that this is the correct definition. Then tell me who is not? Tell me how to judge the opposite of selfish. Program me so that I can differentiate.

Me: The point is I'm selfish to a degree. Everyone is. The degree to which I am selfish, I consider that within the benchmark. Within the limits of what one is allowed to be.

My mind: Does selfishness make you happy?
Me: What!?

My mind: Tell me, Does being selfish make you happy? Are you happy being within the ‘benchmark’?
Me: I’m okay being within the benchmark. I like doing what I want to do. Having the freedom to feed the ‘self’ in selfish isn’t too bad. 

My mind: Well then does it matter that someone thinks you are selfish?
Me: No it doesn’t!, but our happiness is interdependent - since when i don’t know - but that puts me in a difficult situation.

My mind: Your happiness, your freedom, your decisions is what make you, you. Even though your happiness is interdependent, you shouldn’t cause unhappiness to yourself just to make someone else happy. It shouldn't destroy your peace. Always be at peace with yourself. You are of utmost importance to you. You are your angel, you are your devil. 

Me: So you think i’m not wrong? 
My mind: No!!
Me: Wow! That helped a lot. I wasn’t sure how to feel but now I am feel a lot better.

My mind: Good to know, but don’t trust me either!
Me: Why not? You just explained everything so well!!

My Mind: And who programs how I justify things? Who feeds logic in me? 
Me: Me!

My Mind:Well, have a good day!

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

You: So did you get a 3rd person opinion?
Me: Yes I did.

You: And…? Are we on the same page?
Me: Maybe. Maybe Not. You’ll never know.